08.12.2006
12:46 pm
electricity & magnetism lecture

Yet again the teacher, the proffesor rather, failed to hold our attention for too long. Not that she seems to mind it, really. However this has never been a problem (covering up). Physics is lovely anyway.
But this awful habit that I've developed of late- cynicism, pessimism, brooding over failures- I sound like a 'Dog philosopher', lol. Somebody slap me, shake me by the shoulders. I'm really following Newton's first law here. Ya, i know! Panchali and Shaeema, poor kids, sick and tired of my cribbing, do try to kick me out of this state so often (literally).
Thankfully, though, a sense of finality has set in. This is where I am, not in any parallel universe, where another me is sitting in BITS, blah, blah. Whatever. Maybe i'm better off! For all you know, instead of being given everything on a silver platter, I'll have to slog for what I want, and i might just stumble upon a million more things along the way!
Yes, definitely a greater effort, more running around...and more importantly, more exposure! A variety of colleges, a variety of people with a myriad interests. I have ten thousand myself! Oooo, and i'm not going to let them die. Even if i feel old and spent at 18! Look at me trying to convince myself that i'm better off here! But I have to, I have to!
Besides i've been so shut up here. There is so much to discover. It all isn't always apparent. I have to search. And discover. And be delighted. For instance i thought that the mobile library i saw yesterday was delightful. Panchali showed it to me on the way to the play. The play, on the other hand, wasn't delightful at all! Well, well, 'Carpe Diem!'